Yesterday morning the world had another 'too soon too young' person leave this life. I didn't personal know him but am connected to people that did. My heart breaks and hurts for all those that loved him. No words people can say will comfort you in the way you need to be comforted. Only Jesus can do that....
As Trav and I were getting ready for bed, I looked at him and said, "If you were on the fire department, you would have seen him. You would have seen a young life gone. Would you be able to handle that?" (For those that don't know, Trav has wanted to be on the fire department for a LONG time). Trav looked away and as he was walking out of the bathroom said, "I've already done that..."
Stupid Chrissy. Stupid stupid move. I asked those words without even thinking....Dumb question.
In August 2007 Travis experienced one of his darkest days. We were only 18. Long story short, Trav drove out to his buddies place in Milan MN to check up on him. We hadn't been able to get a hold of him for hours and he was supposed to meet up with Trav around lunch time to move into their new apartment. At around 8:30 that night, Trav found him face first on the living room floor.....he was dead. It's an image that is forever burned into my husbands brain. We were only 18. Life isn't supposed to be this way. We are supposed to be care free and young and having fun. We experienced all those questions. Everyone that knew and loved Marshall felt the same extra heaviness that came with his death.
At 18 years old, Travis, me and everyone else that grieved Marshall learned that life is too short. We all say that when we hear of someone young dying but when you have lived through that kind of grief.... you say it and actually MEAN it. That day in August, changed our lives forever. Trav and I were broken up at the time but you best believe the very next day I got in my car and got to him as fast as I could. We have been together ever since. It's sounds cliche but we didn't want to waste one more day of not loving each other. That day in August, Travis started seeking to know Jesus in a more serious way. God doesn't want tragedies to happen but you best believe He creates all things to work for the good. (Romans 8:28) Stronger relationships were a big thing that came out of Marshall's passing.
Bottom line, life is too short friends. Those of us on this earth that have witnessed first hand a young person's death will tell you that. And I guarantee you that we aren't just saying it to say it. Start living today. And no I don't mean go do crazy things. I don't mean go jump of cliffs or drink all you can drink. I mean start living today how you want to live the rest of your life. Start living your life by being the best possible you. Don't keep waiting to resolve those tough conflicts. Don't keep waiting to fix things in your life that need to be fixed. Don't put off one more day without getting to know Jesus. He loves you so much and wants to be there for you through all of life's ups and downs.
To those of you who knew and loved Kris Tanner, I pray you find comfort in Jesus. There are no words that anyone can say to make you feel better. Only our sweet sweet Savior can help. And He's holding you in His arms and crying with you.
I searched for Kris on FB to see if I recognized him from church. Of course he has most of his profile hidden, which hopefully most of us do but what I did see there melted my heart a little. The few status updates I could see, were of him thanking our glorious God for the day. So go out into the world and be that kind of person. Thank God every day for the gift of today. Do something great today, even if it's just a small act of kindness.......and pray for the Tanner family and everyone else that knew this young man.....
Life is too shorts sometimes. It's just too short....
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