Tuesday, March 4, 2014

In the waiting room...

It's been 5 months.  5 months since our family started out on a long journey.  5 months of sleeping in separate beds.  5 months of eating dinner apart instead of as a family together at the table.  5 months of putting miles and miles on our Pontiac Grand Am.  5 months of buying two separate grocery lists. 5 months of paying for a hotel so my husband has a place to lay his head at night.  5 months of Maci asking for daddy every day and me having to say we will see him Friday.  5 months of what feels like us living 2 completely different lives.

It's honestly hard to believe this all started 5 months ago. While at times it has been way longer than that, there are also times where I wonder where the heck the past 5 months have gone.  We've shared days of heartache and tears, but we've also shared days of excitement and joy.  At the very beginning there were many many days when I asked God why.  Why couldn't He move mountains right away. Why was He making us wait for so long. Why did it feel like I was so alone some days.....

Yet in the past several weeks, God has given me glimpses of the answers to those questions.  And while we don't see a for sure end date in sight for this road we are on, we have been given some clear signs that we are still on the right path.  That we are still listening to God.  That even though there are some solutions we could do right now to make it all end, we are still doing what God called us to do in the very beginning.  Yesterday was just one example of how God shows us that.

For those that don't know we went house hunting this past weekend.  It was a day full of excitement but yet also a time of flat out nerves  We were going to see the areas that we would be making a new life in.  An area where our kids would go to school and made their presence known in this world.  A place where they would start to leave their mark on this world.  We saw many houses, and at the end of the day, we could clearly see the life God is preparing for us out there.  We started focusing on one area in particular out there and so we started our research.  And of course at the top of the list was seeing what church options were out there.  Most of the area is saturated with Lutheran and Catholic churches, but Travis happened to find a baptist church out there with a new pastor that was around our age and have a baby maybe a little younger than Maci.  I then went to our pastors to see what if anything they knew about the church.  Prior to this I had been praying God would show us we were in the right direction.  That wanting this area was the right way.  And when they emailed me back I got an answer.  The new pastor at the church we were looking at was the son of a previous interim pastor at Cornerstone before Pastor Paul.  I sat there and just said "Wow God.  What are the chances that someone from small town Litchfield would have a connection to someone out there..seriously what are the chances?"

Then later on that day I got a sweet message from a friend from church letting me know she had been thinking of us that day and gave me 2 verses.  One of which was Mark 11:24:

"I tell you, you can pray for anything, and if you believe that you've received it, it will be yours"

I'm not just boldly praying that our house sells anymore.  I am BELIEVING that it has sold. I am thanking God for it before it even happens....

There are days when we feel like God has forgotten about us...days when we feel so alone....days when we feel like it will never happen.  But then there are days when God shows up and wraps His loving arms around us and says, "Child I am here.  I love you and am taking care of it.  Just believe.  Just believe...."

We are not alone in the waiting room.  We are not the only family praying for this season in our lives to end.  We are not alone when some days we  are so discouraged. There are more of you out there and I pray that this gives you hope.  Hope that even though there are bad days, there WILL BE  good days.  Days when you can just dance and scream about how amazing our Savior is.  Have faith, believe. God hears you, He sees you, He LOVES you.  There is a reason He is making you wait.  More than likely He is teaching you to trust Him more than you ever thought possible.  This season, this 'winter' will end for you.  I promise friends.  It won't last forever 

  

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