Can you Imagine?

As mother's we've all felt it.  That moment when your baby is handed to you for the first time.  That moment when time stands still and all you can see is this precious face staring back at you.  That moment when your heart swells with more joy and love than you ever thought was possible.  A love that is totally unlike anything you've ever experienced in your whole time on this earth.  A love that is 100% indescribable.  We then get the great joy of watching this little person experience everything for the first time.  The first smile, the first tooth, the first crawl, the first boo-boo, the first word, the first step....all of it.  Which brings us a whole new level of pride knowing we are helping shape this little life into something great.  But can you imagine if that little life was going to grow up to be something far bigger and greater than you could have ever dreamed? Can you imagine if that little life you carried in you for 9 months, the life you have kept safe and sound, would grow up to save the world? That that little life was actually the Son of God??  Can you even wrap your head around how that would feel??  Can you imagine....

Last night I had the privilege of attending our Women's Christmas Event at our church. The speaker was incredible in my book.  She really made me think of the Christmas Story in a way I had even looked at it before.  The entire message was on promises and how our loving God fulfilled His promise on the first Christmas by sending His Son Jesus to be born.  There was one part of the message though that really stirred something up in me.  She talked about sweet young Mary and how Mary gave birth to Jesus.  Yes of course, nothing new there, I've always known that.  Yet the speaker talking about imaging how Mary felt feeling that little boy kick inside of her and know that He was the Son of God.  That is something I honestly never truly thought about before.  Perhaps it's because this is my very first Christmas with a baby of my own.  A baby I felt kick and hiccup inside of me.  A baby that I have got to witness some incredible firsts with.  A baby that I have an indescribable love for.

All morning long as I have been doing everyday mom stuff I have been thinking of Mary and how she did all of this stuff with Jesus Christ.  She gave Him breakfast every morning, kissed His knees when He fell down, giggled with Him as they played, rocked that sweet baby boy to sleep.....All of those things us mothers do, she got to do those with JESUS.  Can you imagine?? I still can't even wrap my head around it, how on earth did a girl around the age of 13 wrap her head around it.  To be honest, it would have scared me to death if someone had told me I would be carrying and giving birth to the Son of God.  I don't know if I could have said "Yes Lord. Use me."  I don't know if I would have had enough faith to completely surrender in that way.  But Mary did, God knew she would; that's why He chose her and not me.

Last year around this time I bought a WOW Christmas CD.  There was 1 song on there that I just totally fell in love with.  Loved it and played it over and over again.  This morning as I had that same CD in that song came on.  Still so in love with it but this time as I was listening to it, I truly listened to every word and got a whole new meaning out of it.  Probably my all time favorite Christmas song now.     

Mary stepped out in faith and let God use her however He needed to.  She got to raise a precious baby boy that she didn't know how long would be here on earth.  She got to raise the Son of God.  Just makes me stand back in awe and wonder.  My prayer this Christmas is not only that God will help me be the best mother I can be to our sweet Maci but that He will use me in whatever way He needs to.  And if it's something so big I can't wrap my head around it....I pray He gives me the strength I need to say "Yes Lord. Use me"


Merry Christmas to all.  Remember the true meaning of Christmas.  Remember that sweet baby born in a manger.  :)

~Chrissy